im 31 and ive faced rejection, persecution, victimisation throughout my life sadly.

i have personality malfuction and ptsd ; ive suffered from very low self esteem all my life and at one point lost all my confidence.

ive faced aloofness, stand offishness, people only be friending me because they see me as some charity case, like i need them to accept me to save me..

ive rebuked these people will intensity, mocking them because i wont dance to their drum or conform or jump through hoops to be accepted.

im not desperate for anyones friendship.

and instead i will insult them and leave their presence.

i have pride, honour, dignity, nobility , integrity, principle , and i will not discard them for anyone.

i want to be accepted unconditionally, for who iam. accepted for who iam on an equal respect level, like iam their equal.

not to be looked down on as desperdao or to be felt sorry for, because i wont accept it and will continue on alone, with just my mother for support.

iam white caucasian but have always struggled to get on with other whites.

i fought and was victimised by black peer gangs in secondary school so now i avoid and have nothing to do with them.

i get on great with asians.

i love insulting, being aggressive with people who try to treat me as inferior, or who patronise or talk down to me because i know of no other ways to handle them.

i want to know , if people didnt accept you , were non accepting, abrupt and aloof , how would you react to it ?

would you act out of nature to be accepted ? or would it not bother you ?

thanx regards

This is very interesting, you give away a lot in the words you choose. Now i am a person who does not care if people accept me or not. I really, really do not give a damn if people don`t like me, talk behind my back, don`t agree with the way i live my life, bring up my children etc.
The difference between you and i though is that i think you really are bothered about what others think because, in your own words - you love insulting them, being aggressive, mocking them. This i do not feel the need to do. I can let it be. I have pride too, honour and integrity but i can just get on with my life and really not care what they think.
If you are aggressive or insulting i think you just give them a reason to think badly of you.
Who am i to talk but my advice is, don`t worry about it (which you obviously do or you wouldn`t have written your feelings on here) Just leave others to think what they like and don`t give them a reason to think anything. Honestly people won`t be thinking you will have to beg for their acceptance, they are too busy getting on with their own lives.
You say you have personality malfunction, (I`m sure you know more about it than i do I advise you carry on with whatever treatment the Health Service offers you as i think the rest of your life feeling like this would be pretty miserable.
Good luck and take care.

I don't give a damn if people don't accept me. In fact if they make a problem about me, I will put myself more in their presence just to get to them. I am quite happy being me and if no one else likes that, that's there problem.
Now you have to ask yourself if your attitude makes you happy or not?

because you can say i have pride, honour, dignity, nobility , integrity, principle means alot..... my awnser is f###k evryone else you be who you want to be and follow your own heart. love and support JoesBabyGirl xxx

Dont mind them.

sever all contact and move on

well i think yu have to just try and do yur best to just move on and make other friends with people who do accept yu because it is important to be with people who accept you for who yu are, in my opinion anyway.

And no way is this easy for you, but i admire yu for not changing yourself to be who others want you to be 'cause that is the easy way out, but not a good thing to do. I dont think you should act out of nature at all because it isn't worth it.

I think you are doing really well, and doing what i would like to think i would do , but i think really in your situation i would be much weaker than you and it would really get to me. Please try not to let it bother you too much, its just life, right? Not a pleasant side of life but what can we do?

Good luck with everything! Be strong! x x